The pedulum has swung back to my "normal" state. Whew! Thanks to all of you for your words of encouragement! I hate those dark days, but everyone has them right? Some days it is just harder than others. However, today is a good day. Today is a day that I can sit back and be thankful for all of the good. Today is the day that I know I have "a place". I have great friends, a "close circle of internet blogging buddies", and many others who care.
The thing is....I live in a really small and secluded town. There aren't a lot of places that I can turn to get the support that I sometimes need. Yes, I do have really good friends here, but hey...it's been 5 years, and sometimes I feel like they think I am just whining. NO, I am not whining, but I can see how they might perceive that I am???
One of my very best friends had a son that had a transplant around the same time as Em...except his was heart. His mom and I hit it off from the beginning. That was 4 years ago, and she is still one that I confide many of my insecurities too.
It's just a different path than any of us ever dreamed we would end up on, but does life really ever go the way that we planned?
So, today I am going to take a moment to be thankful for the little things. Like the top 3 things that made me laugh this weekend:
1) Owen has no desire to "crawl"...why would you need to crawl when you can practice your wrestling moves and still get places?
Oh, I thought I had downloaded the picture:(. I will soon, and you will see what I mean. Picture him laying on his back and pushing up into a bridge with his head and feet still on the ground...and moving around the house like that!!! TOO FUNNY!!
2) Walking into Emma using the toilet, "Like Daddy does"...you can use your imagination on that one:).
3) Emma following me around the house all weekend with various books saying, "What do the words say?". I would read the page, she's flip to the next page and start all over again, and again, and again! I am so glad that she loves books, and it is neat to see that she knows that the words say something. GO EMMA!!!