Monday, February 09, 2009

Life is Good

After experiencing a total meltdown...I am definitely feeling better. For some reason, I have to occassionally "go there". The school psychologist is the one that sent me over the edge this time. We live in a small town, and we are acquaitances (sp?)with him (I am also a colleague of his since I work in the same school district). He e-mailed me that day to say that he didn't know if he felt comfortable doing the testing on Emma because he knows us (Tim and myself). I grew up in this town....I know everyone. It just really threw me off and upset me. It just made it uneasy for me. Everyone that works with Emma is my friend...people that I have known for a long time. When I first received this e-mail, I really thought that he was speaking for Emma's whole team, but as I looked into it...I found that it was just him speaking for him....and he's a little odd. It just ticks me off because he is a professional....and he needs to learn to seperate himself as the professional...from himself as a colleague/friend. I DO IT EVERYDAY!!! I HAVE to seperate the teacher in me from the mom in me...and I think that I do a pretty good job...I expect the same from others that work with Em.

Anyway, that is where my struggle came from the other day. I just find it difficult as Em gets older and more people work with her. It's difficult this year because we have a totally different team working with her. It is a learning experience because they are getting to know her...but they're also getting to know a different side of me. When it comes to Em I am protective...I have to be, but I am also still me...I am an understanding understanding individual who wants only what is best for my child.

Kind of a garbled post, but I just had to say that LIFE IS GOOD!! I want to thank you all so much for the comments. There are very few people who truly understand the emotions of having a child with special needs. It takes a special group of people to be there for you when you need it. THANKS cyber-space friends/ are my saving grace!

Here is how good my life is amazingly fantastic actually!

OK...photobucket is having "issues"....I will post the picture SOON!


Cindy said...

I'm so glad you've turned the corner. I'm in there with you that only the select few know what it's like to be a parent of a special needs kid...but you're in an even smaller group that actually works in the same system that your child is in. I can only imagine how hard it is to be professional and a mom at the same time. Go Angie!

Kristi said...

Very glad you are feeling better now. Was thinking about you and hoping you were.

Finding Normal said...

Sorry I'm late to the party, but glad you're feeling better.
I'm dreading having Addison in our system. Dreading it. And knowing that my husband challenges everyone who works with her, in a good way most of the time, to not limit themselves or her. And knowing that it will be a challenge to separate my mommyself from my professional self.
Boy...something else to look forward to. UGH