Monday, September 22, 2008

Today...Breath...Get through Today

Why is it that some days are like this? Today I saw a little girl doing cartwheels while her mom was trying to get her into the car. I saw her and all I could think was, "That's supposed to be my little girl....why why why???". Just when you think that you won't ever ask "why?" again. Just when you think you are comfortable with life and where your child hits you like a ton of bricks. Damn it!!! It's just not fair! Yes, I am so very thankful that she is alive! I am so thankful that she is who she is and that she shines sunshine into very dark places, but sometimes I just have to ask WHY!!!

I listen to the children in my class talk about Emma. They are so sweet saying, "Emma is just very little" or "she is young". While I am so happy that the others are so accepting...I just wish....oh how I wish!!

Yes, I am having my own pity party! I am....I am entitled. It won't last forever...but, it is what it is.

Here's a little picture of my 2 to brighten this post:). Enjoy!

1 comment:

Cindy said...

What a beautiful picture!

A parent to an RTS adult told me that there will ALWAYS be a pity party...they just get further apart. That's helped me be ok with having a pity party when they do come.

And our sweeties are always so sweet!