Monday, January 15, 2007

Somedays I think my mind just needs to take a vacation and go somewhere else. I believe today is a day that it should have done that....because it is thinking entirely too much! Emma and I have the day off today...YEAH!! We have the day off for "equality day"...otherwise known as Martin Luther King Day. My husband does not have the day off....apparently they do not have enough ethnic diversity in the community??? Today is also my brother-in-laws birthday. We were invited to go out to breakfast with my sister, brother-in-law, their 3 boys, and her mother and father in-law. Emma was eating like a champ, and I was actually breathing (I am usually holding my breath at a restaurant, scoping out where the bathroom is, and contemplating the quickest and easiest path I can take to get to the bathroom once my child has thrown up). However, today seemed like a different day. We were going to make it through this meal. All was going to be OK. WRONG!!!! Emma shoved too much toast into her mouth, gagged, and yes you guessed it....threw up. Luckily, I had the "bucket bib" in place and caught all of it. However, the humility of it hit me like a ton of bricks. Tears flooded my eyes and flowed down my cheeks as I quickly walked to the bathroom to empty the contents of the bib and wash it out. Of course I quickly composed myself and came out looking fresh and ready to take on the world again. I may look that way on the outside, but everytime that happens a little piece of my dignity goes along with it. Times like that make me look at my future....a future that no one knows. Will I one day have a 12 year old that still has to wear a bib and throws up?? Will this ever get better? Tears again...here they come! Where is the God that is supposed to listen to my prayers? How many times have I prayed in the last 3 1/2 years? Yes, my child is with me, and for that I truly am thankful. I just want her to have an easier life. I need help! Words of advise from other parents that have been there? How do you cope with what may/may not be in the future?

5 comments:

lfaiwj1314 said...

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DDM said...

I'm so sorry you're having a hard time. My son is a champion gagger/barfer too. We rarely go to restaurants because of it, and if we do, strategically place ourselves so that his view of other diner's plates is blocked. often, we place a menu up as a visual block between our son and us. Like you, I'm a champion barf catcher. I think with time it gets better because you learn little tricks (like the menu) that help. We keep one glass empty on the table so we can use it as a barf catcher. I should mention that my son is a visual barfer. If he sees someone else with stringy or dangly food even 6 tables away, it's all over! He will also overstuff his mouth and gag. With time it's gotten better because we've learned to laugh it off. Seriously. Gotta laugh or you spend a LOT of time crying. (((Hugs)))

2DISCO said...

Okay, what is with the Many sexy girl in you, make friends comment? LOL I have the answer for you(drumroll........) Since you are so close and do not see it, I have to tell you. Emma is in training for supermodel of the year...2012. It was supposed to be top secret, but for your sanity, I had to tell you. Come on, you didn't think there was something really wrong with her did you? The hair, the smile, the wave? All part of the training. This message will self destruct in 20 seconds....Keep your chin up Ang.

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