I am experiencing a Love/Hate relationship with my life.
Things that I love: 1) I love love love to be a Mom 2) I love my little angel with all of my heart and soul 3) I love being a wife...even though my husband and I don't always see eye to eye...It is great having someone to come home to, and someone to share everything about life. 4)I love my job (as crazy as that sounds...I have the best job that anyone could ask for...I have 9 5 and 6 year olds that love me and think that everything I say "just has to be right"! 5) I love the place that I live...it is beautiful, mountainous, varying seasons, etc.
Yes, I do have SO much to be thankful for and to love...so why do I have this hate feeling inside??
Things that I hate: 1) I hate that my child has to go through so much! 2) I hate that we are in the hospital. 3) I hate not having all of the answers 4) I hate not knowing what the future will be (I know that no one does, but when you have a "medically fragile" child I think that fear in compounded) 5) I hate not being able to lead a "normal" life 6) I hate it when people feel sorry for my situation....when they express it to me it makes me cry...I feel even more pathetic...then they feel even more sorry for me...it is a losing battle.
Yes, my life is different! That commercial that says "Everything changes when you have a baby" WHEW!! They weren't kidding! Would I trade it if it meant not having Emma in my life....NOT IN A MILLION YEARS...I WILL DO ANYTHING FOR THAT PRECIOUS CHILD OF MINE!!!