Can I just take a little break from seeing a silver lining on everything that I write about on here. I just need an outlet for a little while and maybe...just maybe it will make me feel a little bit better.
Can I just say that I am TIRED.
I am tired of CONTINUALLY having to advocate for anything and everything that my child needs.
I am tired or worrying about the future....or if there will be a future for Emma.
I am tired of her hitting and kicking and pushing and me not being able to understand WHY?????
I am tired of other children omitting her from games because she isn't always "nice" (see the previous).
I am tired of not being able to explain her behaviors.
I am tired a person who works with her who DOES.NOT.LIKE.HER....and it becomes more and more obvious every day.
I am tired of educators that I can already see placing a "ceiling" on her learning capabilities.
I am tired of not having Emma be invited over to friend's houses for play dates.
I am tired of daily medications.
I am tired of Emma not being able to name her colors....no matter how much I work with her on them.
I am tired of being on an anti-depressant to deal with my depression...and still feeling depressed.
OK...there is A LOT more that I am tired of....but right now I am just tired and I need to go to bed so I can start a new day that will HOPEFULLY not be as tiring!!
Still thankful....just VERY tired!