Monday, December 05, 2005
Every Day...A Miracle
It is so easy, in the every day hustle and bustle to forget what is truly important to us. I have found myself thinking about my husband a lot this week. It is amazing how much our relationship has transformed since the birth of Emma. I think any couple that has a child experiences this transformation, but to have a child with medical needs...it changes the shape of you as an individual, it changes the way you think, and I think that you have to go through the initial shock at your own pace...then find your soul mate again after the shock wears off. True, Tim and I have been together every step of the way. We have made every decision regarding Emma together, however at first we were both angry at what had happened to our family, this was not what we had "planned". Looking back it feels as if it was someone else's life. Life is so much better now, and we are finally getting back to what is truly important to us...our family.
When Tim and I were dating I received flowers A LOT. Our first Valentines day he made Lobster fondue and a fabulous dessert. When he went away on trips he would leave little notes and gifts around my house. He would write love letters to me that would melt my heart. Luckily, I hung onto those letters. I come across them occassionally and I read them again. It brings me back to those "simple times". Then, I find myself wondering "where did that romantic guy go". Well, he IS still in there!! It's just in a different way. You see, every time that I go to bed I open a beautiful little box next to my bed. On the lid there is a mother holding a child and it is carved in wood. There are roses carved on the sides. When I open the box I look on the bottom where it says "Every Day...A Miracle". This box was a gift from my loving and romantic husband when he returned from a trip. On the inside of the lid there is a picture of our precious girl sitting on my shoulders. Looking in that box takes the weight of the world off of me. Each night I blow a kiss in the box and I close it. I am reminded again and again that every day is a miracle. It is a miracle with Emma, it is a miracle with Tim, it is a miracle with each person that I connect with every day. Life is a miracle, and how amazing it is to see the miracles that surround us when we stop to think about what is truly important to us.